Monday, March 8, 2010
Please, Lord...the MADNESS!!!
"Jesus, help me."
"Jesus, rescue me."
"Jesus, you are the only one that can deliver me from the MADNESS!"
Last week, I shared that I had become quite overwhelmed and reached for that chocolate Easter Bunny, right? Well...it has been a week and the enemy is within my blood and is standing ground as Master over me, and his name is....CHOCOLATE.
~To go through my days "preoccupied" with WHEN the next time will present itself for me to partake of something chocolate.
~To feel the racing thoughts and struggle to keep my focus.
~To feel the irritability rising in me at any given moment.
~To not be able to respond to the children with a
peaceful, fully attentive, attitude of love.
I'm sure other people struggle with the same thing, but after going 3 months without any chocolate and then to have two bouts of it in a three week period I see the horrible toll it takes on my whole being.
To be able to focus on preparing dinner, cleaning zones in my home, engaging the children with patience and peace...drastically more difficult than without it in my system.
I write this tonight because this is what is "on my mind" and I can't stand it and want to be free once again.
If you feel led, please lift a prayer for me for deliverance, strength to combat the intense cravings, and patience and focus to get through the next week of detoxing my system.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! = )